Yesterday, 28th was my elder sister, Kazumi’s 32nd birthday. OMG, 32 sounds really really something and she is just one year and 8 months older than me… Anyhow, I did not send her a card or flowers, but I thought about her for a quite while last night. She has been, and is always like a super-star for me since… since I was born, I guess. She is pretty, very smart, and very funny. She does things I could never be able to do and she makes it look very easy.
Around her, I just cannot behave as I usually do, because I too much admire her, and feel that I could never be like her. But she always tries to be somehow serious with me, levels her to me, and tries to talk through me, so sometimes we have conditions like “do we ever get along?”
I know myself wanting a big “approval” from my family members, especially from my sister (who wouldn’t want it anyway?) and it never happened (who would really “approve” someone in their own family anyway?). Then I think, well, it never happened ever since and it never will because there is no such a thing like “approval.” I’m not getting my childish wish ever. So then I got a conclusion that, hey, I finally matured!
So, I guess this, maturity of me, is what my sister wanted from me for a long time. Happy birthday, Sis! I hope you liked my present! Sorry to be late, hope not too late.
from the eternal city